I realized this afternoon that I get almost the exact same feeling of inadequacy from reading both personal ads and employment ads. I always find one ad which seems to be an absolute perfect fit until I read the one glaring area in which I don’t quite measure up…
That’s probably why I read employment ads infrequently, and why I look at personal ads about once a year or so…
I think I take the personal ads a little more, well, personally. After all, if I really had to, I could learn Flash or ASP, even though it’s the last thing I’m really in the mood to do right now…
It’s harder, though, to change personal characteristics. Especially since I’m not much motivated to do so…
Queer versions of “my type” (cute little punk rock boys, shaggy-headed types, non-believers in “gay culture”, and other assorted geeky guys) are hard enough to find to begin with, and the few who exist are rarely attracted to ill-tempered, meat-eating, cigarette-smoking, semi-hairy slacker hermits in their 30s…
I quite understand; I’m not much attracted to ill-tempered semi-hairy slackers in their 30s either, except as really good friends…
Maybe in a few years, when I become an ill-tempered semi-hairy slacker in my 40s, my expectations will catch up with my reality, and I might actually start being attracted to more people of the sort who are actually attracted to me. I might even start thinking more in terms of sustainable relationships than of romance and sex. But I have my doubts…
